Every one tells me you don’t deserve me, they are right you don’t deserve me, I deserve you. I am sorry about never trusting you, I am sorry for always hurting you, I am sorry I can’t be who you want me to be, I am sorry I can’t be perfect, I am sorry for our past experiences, I am sorry I can’t be your dream boy, what I am aiming for is I am sorry I’m not good enough to be with you but every other piece of shit is. I really do miss you. It’s fucked how sometimes you think you’ve gotten over someone, but when you see them smile you suddenly realize your just pretending you got over them to erase the pain of knowing they will never be yours. It takes a minute to find someone special, a day to love them, and a life time to forget them. The worst way to miss someone is to have them sitting right next to you and knowing you can’t have them. I’m so sick of this game. After I left and you took off I walked to the bridge, I stood there for awhile thinking about everything, wondering how long it would take for people to notice that I was gone, How long it would take to get to the bottom, how cold that april water would feel. Then Kieleigh’s face flashed in my head, I could never do that to her.
even though I have tattoos & piercings, I think country girls who don’t mind getting dirty are the sexiest things in the world. Judge me.